Monday, September 27, 2010

Monday Morning

It's 3:30 in the morning - I have been up since 12:30. 

I have been crying. 
cried because I just want to sleep
 cried because of all the pain I'm in
cried because all I keep getting is early labor and no baby

Lord please give me the strength to keep going!


Sleepwalker said...

You are being very brave and patient. Just remember that all this contracting is going to mean you are tough as nails for later. Wish I'd used a tens machine early on as friends said they really did help at this stage. Have you any pain relief? You are wanting a home birth from blog so have you got a community midwife looking after you or family who have had babies? It is all doing something, remember it is progress. You wouldn't be effaced if it was nothing. This will pass darling, it can't go on and on. This bit just feels as if it goes on and on. You have to try not to think about it and just let nature take over, try not to be in your head. All these hormones that control everything are funny things.. Stress works against the good endorphins so dim those lights and try to get as comfortable as you can. If you need to rest then rest but if you need to be active then do that, just try not to think about stressful things or count and count and count. Contractions peak and then you have a complete rest before the next one so you brace yourself and make the most of the in between to catch your breath. You may even be near transition if you are feeling really emotional. Things can move quickly, baby is poised and ready and you might just dilate really fast after all this contracting. I really hope baby comes soon and you have a quick and easy final stage. Think it is time to step away from the computer and just be in a quiet place where you can let nature take over. Xxx

Larissa said...

I am so sorry. I know what that feels like. I remember crying like that with Rosalie. I felt as though I couldn't take it 1 more second.
I'm praying for you, my dear friend.

Sleepwalker said...

Hoping things are moving along for you, darling. Sending prayers too.

The Cormier Family said...

Oh, I am so sorry, Dear Lady...we are praying...